19.26 Sweden time, a strong gin and tonic and a box of cookies.
It’s still light, we leave tomorrow. Apparently Hemingway used to write drunk, I am not drunk, but I do understand the fingers feel a bit looser, I care a bit less which is probably a good thing. Drink responsibly though.
Yes transitions, good great to talk about that one. I do wonder if my newsletter has become a little too polished though? I miss the rawness of it, the angst, that rally call style. The anger and the activism.
Oh cheer up mate you’ve said that so many times (written after I wrote this)
I miss that in general really as I just don’t feel that about mental health anymore. I don’t feel the social injustice in the same way as I did, I trust the movement is well on it’s way and I don’t feel as enlivened as I used to.
It’ll all be ok though I’m a great guy. (Written after I wrote this)
I think my writing probably will just be kind of ok until I really feel like I have something to write about. Something that galvanises me and my writing. Or perhaps I’ll realise this is me and I am just an absolute worm.
Not that being a worm is a bad thing. I say worm because who notices worms? In fact I’m not a worm, I do feel like I live in my own little worm world right now though. Writing, notice, reading, reflecting. Maybe more like a snail, waiting.
WORMS!
SNAILS!
Who knows, this is a ramble and the gin hasn’t knocked anything loose. I always feel a bit melancholy when I write, I should try writing in yellow or something to see if that changes my mood. Or do a podcast or a video or literally like handwrite my newsletter or something.
ALWAYS WANTED TO DO A FUNNY PODCAST THAT IS ACTUALLY FUN AND NOT JUST OOOOHHHH LETS GET A BIG SERIOUS GUEST ON AND BE ALL SERIOUS ABOUT ASKING THEM QUESTIONS. Armchair Expert is the best for this.
I think I’m a bit lost though so my writing is probably a bit lost.
BORING! YOU’RE NOT LOST YOU JUST KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT :) CHEER UP :) GEORGE! (Written after)
Oh also I now actually pay £80 a month for this newsletter! Crikey I hope it’s worth it, but it is. What a funny world where I pay to write to people for free? I could do it for free on social media but then I don’t want to so yeah I am paying to send you all a letter. Why not.
I am going to create a little side project called roweverywhere.com it’ll be a website and Facebook group for people who want to go rowing in different countries whilst travelling or on holiday. It’s something I’ve done whilst I’ve been away and it’s been so fun, I’ve met some great people and rowed on some great water. It’s fun to just start a little side project with no pressure, I’m not expecting that it needs to be the next big deal, just fun and creative. I feel like I need that.
It’s mad how suddenly the thought of just creating a little website on my own is like what!!! I’m looking around like a kid to see if anyone will notice I’m doing it. I feel like I am being PROPER NAUGHTY (a good one to say out loud)
Anyway a bit melancholy and Hemingway, but ending on a positive note. If you like rowing and would like to row around the world, or know someone who loves rowing let me know.
Big big big big big baby
James x
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