10 episodes of crazy talk! That kind of makes me wonder where on earth the last 10 weeks have gone, but I shan't do that or else I will fall into the hole of "what am I doing with my life"
I am definitely still married which is wonderful, have I mentioned that? I am writing with a ring on my finger I think I said that last week.
It's only 19 minutes until this newsletter goes out and I was writing it at 10pm last night! naughty boy! I don't have to pretend my wellbeing and mental health and self-care is perfect now like I used to think I needed to, sometimes I am quite sloppy and messy like now writing crazy talk in my bed, I have not showered.
creatively I do not feel totally crazy, I had a bit of debbie downer =( day the other day I think maybe the come down from the wedding and being MARRIED and everything, but then that doesn't really matter now because I write crazy talk just purely in the moment of what is happening NOW. How I felt 27 days ago doesn't even matter.
WHAT A REVELATION! HOW I FELT IN THE PAST DOESN'T REALLY MATTER NOW. I FEEL LIKE GEORGE HE IS ALWAYS IN THE MOMENT.
creatively, because creativity is what it's all about for me I continue to feel drawn to this here newsletter as my creative vehicle as my place to make and build and satisfy the hunger. I keep banging on about substack, but moving over there will happen, I just haven't had the time. I am also definitely doing a bit of avoidance, because that's always helpful!
although as an aside I don't think avoiding things is that bad, procrastination is ok sometimes one just is not ready to share the juice with the world, I am not so I have been healthily procrastinating.
it actually wows me that I can type this fast, what a skill!
I thought too about how I could use my writing to bring the wonderful legends on the newsletter in contact with one another somehow, but not in a way that feels like linkedin or twitter (vom), not sure about that. The key for me is to keep writing in a way that I love, like now, yet slowly and gently mould, caress, shape into something sustainable for me. It's all about the moulding and shaping.
crazy crazy bye bye. It's crazy that I spent so many years thinking about impact and that the only way to have impact on the world is by building a business!!! what nonsense, you can have an impact in a job or by writing a weekly newsletter. Who has brainwashed me?!?!? someone has and I want to know, someone has brainwashed me into thinking building businesses solves everything. I blame the film the social network, and someone else? not sure who.
the birds are tweeting, I am hot and it is 08.49, better send this bad boy.
good morrow friends
james x
oh gosh it is now 08.55 what a thrill!x
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